Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Garcia Family Reunion plans ALMOST deflate...

Sandi posted something about me making our group secret... and it had to do with some of the comments and post some family felt the need to post or say....

Well sadly SECRET didn't or wouldn't have done anything! I made the group in hopes that everyone could think of ideas and post those.. and if they wanna share family PHOTOS or INVITES that is fine however I would suggest everyone make a immediate family one... I have NO IDEA what EVERYONE'S so CALLED issues or problems ARE! I know that everyone should be embarrassed to FB any of it. I made it SECRET so NONE of my friends would see some of the post being put up.

However for the FAMILY that doesn't get involved in that LETS not SCARE them off into dis-owning their family. 

I wish I could post and not get comments. As I've seen over and over the stuff FAMILY post and responds to via private FB or on each others. I wont lie I've done it once or twice in a moment of my feelings being hurt but I decided it's not the RIGHT nor GROWN up thing to do.

If no one thinks we can pull this off or do something like this - FEEL FREE TO SAY SO.

Let me be REAL HONEST... I am SO SAD... a few years ago me and Auntie Marylou were trying to plan this! We were so excited and had so many great ideas! After her daughter passed away; Auntie was SO SAD, we said we would put it off for awhile. I love Auntie Marylou so much! She not one time has forgot my son and when she couldn't make it, she would mail him a gift for his Birthday.

Life isn't about gifts or this and that. Life is about who is THERE WHEN IT COUNTS. I have 4 FAMILIES!! Three! If I get married again one day I will have 5.

Do you know how hard it is? To make EVERYONE HAPPY???? I yet to spend a HOLIDAY like Thanksgiving or Christmas with my Sisters and other Brother from my Biological side of my family. (That's one) I have my mom's side (2) I have my DADS side my DAD that by all rights is my BLOOD father for those whom think something different. He raised me and that family is who I grew up with and only knew for most of my life and that makes (3) I have the positive people in my life people I attend Church with and Bible Study that makes (4) if I get married again... his family will be my family as well and another person to spend time with. which would make (5) However MIND YOU.... God he is my number one in life!!!!

This is why when people want to have the people they avoid or stay away from I let my heart be guided by ME... I have cousins that EVERYONE wants to put down and talk about but let me say this: IF I CALLED THAT/THOSE people they would give me whatever I may need if they HAD IT... (I don't ask anyone for anything) do you know how comforting that is? I have the RELIGIOUS family... man these ones... are harder on everyone then I think God will be one day.

I love & believe and enjoy God in my life, I don't judge anyone who feels other ways. I believe that my kindness could infect someone and possibly lead them to God, or if I may just be the only person in there life that they allow the talk of God or the Bible so why in the world would I cut them out of my life?

I have been so SAD about Auntie... I can't imagine loosing memory one day even the moments I have lost already trying to shut out the AWFUL that happen to me as child pains me since I had to choose to forget the GOOD as well. I truly can barely remember before age 11... that is SO SAD! So with all of that this year.. I thought to myself... at least I can try to do as we wanted to do for Grandpa Ray or in his honor.

FAMILY- I'd love nothing more then everyone to DO THEM... SAY WHAT THEY WANT to (that person) in person IF IT IS NEEDED or YOU FEEL it's needed. However for someone like me..  I don't wanna know or hear. I lost 6 very close family members last year! I'm in the process of loosing the LAST GRANDFATHER... and the one I SPEND THE MOST TIME WITH in my life RIGHT NOW... so all this other stuff... it's un needed. *Sigh (if you didn't know anything Thank God! it's pointless) really that person you dis-like hate or can't stand and even worse think your better then.. if I called you RIGHT NOW! and said they DIED .... would you BE HAPPY? or would you actually CRY or FEEL SAD? I love you ALL! From the ones I've met, haven't met yet, the ones I use to spend every day with, see once a year, hear from via phone once in awhile, the ones only I hear from with Christmas Cards, the ones that make me LAUGH with the Silly things they say on FB and frankly all of you!

I don't like when people talk about me but God tells me it doesn't define me so I hurt but choose to let it be. You'll find yourself much happier this way. I love you! Well I'm babysitting and this little girl... man just looking at her there is no way I couldn't be happy and smile... FIND your JOY.. I love seeing all your kids.. and don't like thinking about deactivating FB as I know for some of us this is the only way we can be connected. Have a Blessed Day!!! (Sandi this is for everyone but seeing your post made me stop thinking about it and I decided to post it and thank you for always having a open home to me!)

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Love

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

Friday, November 25, 2011

“If you judge people, you have no time to love them.”

Little did you know the pain already deep within ...
So we cried this passed week.
We tried to hold it together but it was harder then you can imagine.
Seeing someone you looked up to your entire childhood ready to loose someone "your not ready to" can kill apart of your soul.
We purposely didn't hug thanksgiving eve we knew it would turn into tears.
Thanksgiving was hard we both cried all day... however it was great to see Grandpa having a good day and talking so much.
Almost midnight we finally were home and started to talk about some really painful memories that we both had questions about and realized we weren't the only ones with these questions.
The awful truth is we weren't ready for these answers.
Why we left only to watch my Aunt be ridiculed. Like how could you?
That was the cake and the icing was being called one of the NAME(S) I would never want to be called.
I want to say after the month I've had and the passed three days of my niece going into the hospital only to still be there and how awful on Thanksgiving!!!!  <>
I bawled my eyes out for fifteen full minutes in the car, I can't explain my PAIN.
I tried to say we could go here and enjoy our time.... but to know this is why you don't go around anyone or go anywhere... that makes me feel bad!!!





 I've been called Ugly many times growing up..
"Smiles are great investments: the more you collect, the better you feel."

Stronger

"Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."

"A kiss makes the heart young again and wipes out the years."
"If you’re not using your smile, you’re like a man with a million dollars in the bank and no checkbook."
“Music is what feelings sound like.”

Monday, November 21, 2011

Late night

As I just finished my last meeting of the day I wonder how come I don't take Xanax or other things. Then I remember it is because of prayer and the faith in God I have. I pray that we get some more of the community involved in our Students education, Students Sports, Students Lives in general! Someone has to care about these kids! Us few can't be the only ones caring about the Foster, Homeless & Students in general! I wish I had a few clones ....

Monday, November 7, 2011

BAD DREAMS MEANING

I woke up from a awful nightmare. With my heart pounding; I wanted to call my best friend April but my breathing from crying would have scared her. As I said the smallest prayer just simply saying "God?" I reached for my Bible. With no bookmark I opened and read:
"Many broken promises are like so many dreams; they mean nothing."
Found in Ecclesiastes 5. [I wanted my pops & my father showed me words spoken long ago for a moment like this.] I'm not going to question it. Goodnight.

Healing Bible Verses =)

Matthew 8:2-3
A man with leprosy came and knelt before him and said, "Lord, if you are willing, you can make me clean." Jesus reached out his hand and touched the man. "I am willing," he said. "Be clean!" Immediately he was cured of his leprosy.

Matthew 8:17
This was to fulfill what was spoken through the prophet Isaiah: "He took up our infirmities and carried our diseases."

Matthew 18:18-19
"I tell you the truth, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven. "Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven.

Matthew 21:21
Jesus replied, "I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, `Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and it will be done.

Mark 11:23-24
"I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, `Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

Mark 16:17-18
And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well."

John 10:10
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

Romans 4:17-21
Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, "So shall your offspring be." Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead--since he was about a hundred years old--and that Sarah's womb was also dead. Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.

Romans 8:11
And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit, who lives in you.

II Corinthians 10:4-5
The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Galatians 3:13-14
Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us, for it is written: "Cursed is everyone who is hung on a tree." He redeemed us in order that the blessing given to Abraham might come to the Gentiles through Christ Jesus, so that by faith we might receive the promise of the Spirit.

Ephesians 6:10-17
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

Philippians 2:13
...for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.

Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

II Timothy 1:7
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

Hebrews 10:23
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.

Hebrews 10:35
So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded.

Hebrews 11:11
By faith Abraham, even though he was past age--and Sarah herself was barren--was enabled to become a father because he considered him faithful who had made the promise.

Hebrews 13:8
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

James 5:14-15
Is any one of you sick? He should call the elders of the church to pray over him and anoint him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven.

I Peter 2:24
He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed.

I John 3:21-22
Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God and receive from him anything we ask, because we obey his commands and do what pleases him.

III John 2
Dear friend, I pray that you may enjoy good health and that all may go well with you, even as your soul is getting along well.

Revelations 12:11
They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.
Exodus 15:26
He said, "If you listen carefully to the voice of the LORD your God and do what is right in his eyes, if you pay attention to his commands and keep all his decrees, I will not bring on you any of the diseases I brought on the Egyptians, for I am the LORD, who heals you."

Exodus 23:25
Worship the LORD your God, and his blessing will be on your food and water. I will take away sickness from among you.

Deuteronomy 7:15
The LORD will keep you free from every disease. He will not inflict on you the horrible diseases you knew in Egypt…

Deuteronomy 28:1-14, 61
If you fully obey the LORD your God and carefully follow all his commands I give you today, the LORD your God will set you high above all the nations on earth. All these blessings will come upon you and accompany you if you obey the LORD your God: You will be blessed in the city and blessed in the country. The fruit of your womb will be blessed, and the crops of your land and the young of your livestock--the calves of your herds and the lambs of your flocks. Your basket and your kneading trough will be blessed. You will be blessed when you come in and blessed when you go out. The LORD will grant that the enemies who rise up against you will be defeated before you. They will come at you from one direction but flee from you in seven. The LORD will send a blessing on your barns and on everything you put your hand to. The LORD your God will bless you in the land he is giving you. The LORD will establish you as his holy people, as he promised you on oath, if you keep the commands of the LORD your God and walk in his ways. Then all the peoples on earth will see that you are called by the name of the LORD, and they will fear you. The LORD will grant you abundant prosperity--in the fruit of your womb, the young of your livestock and the crops of your ground--in the land he swore to your forefathers to give you. The LORD will open the heavens, the storehouse of his bounty, to send rain on your land in season and to bless all the work of your hands. You will lend to many nations but will borrow from none. The LORD will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the LORD your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom. Do not turn aside from any of the commands I give you today, to the right or to the left, following other gods and serving them.
The LORD will also bring on you every kind of sickness and disaster not recorded in this Book of the Law, until you are destroyed.

Deuteronomy 30:19-20
This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live and that you may love the LORD your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. For the LORD is your life, and he will give you many years in the land he swore to give to your fathers, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.

I Kings 8:56
Praise be to the LORD, who has given rest to his people Israel just as he promised. Not one word has failed of all the good promises he gave through his servant Moses.

Psalm 91:16
With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation.

Psalm 103:3
Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits--who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases.

Psalm 107:20
He sent forth his word and healed them; he rescued them from the grave.

Psalm 118:17
I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the LORD has done.

Proverbs 4:20-23
My son, pay attention to what I say; listen closely to my words. Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart; for they are life to those who find them and health to a man's whole body.

Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Isaiah 53:4-5
Surely he took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows, yet we considered him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.

Jeremiah 1:12
The LORD said to me, "You have seen correctly, for I am watching to see that my word is fulfilled."

Jeremiah 30:17
But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds,' declares the LORD, `because you are called an outcast, Zion for whom no one cares.'

Joel 3:10
Beat your plowshares into swords and your pruning hooks into spears. Let the weakling say, `I am strong!`

Nahum 1:9
Whatever they plot against the LORD he will bring to an end; trouble will not come a second time.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Getting the Most from God's Word

As you embark on taking a journey, I encourage you to engage with God’s Word following these four steps so that your life may be touched and changed in the most meaningful way.
 
Pray to God to connect with you here. Ask Him to help you understand.

Read the selected section of Scripture slowly. Mark the words and phrases that intrigue you, read them for a second time.

Reflect on what grabs you here. What is God communicating to you? Stop long enough to let this take root and thank God for engaging you.

Respond to the passage. Speak directly to God about what is on your mind and heart. Look for ways to live out what you find and bring what you find to others.

Friday, November 4, 2011

Sergio Jimenez- Missing Student in Natomas! Please pray for him and the family

Sacramento police are searching for a missing 17-year-old.
Police said Sergio Jimenez was last seen at school Wednesday, in the Natomas area, but he never made it home. According to the teen's family, it is unlike him to leave and not tell his family.Natomas Pacific Pathways Prep High School (NP3) has organized a search for Jimenez.Volunteers will meet in the NP3 gym at 9:00 a.m. Saturday. The school is located at 3700 Del Paso Road.Students will be accompanied by adults and focus on the areas south of the school, along El Centro Road to San Juan.Organizers say those interested in volunteering for the search are welcome. For more information on the search, contact Principal Tom Rutten at 916-826-5966.Jimenez is described as being 5 feet 4 inches tall and weighing 145 pounds. He was last seen wearing a gray and blue sweater and black jeans. He also wears glasses. Anyone with information about Sergio Jimenez's whereabouts is asked to call the Sacramento Police Department at 916-264-5471.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

The male species

You tell a woman you are truly ready for commitment, pursue her … and then freak out. OR you have past entanglements (like that darn ex), which are really holding you back from being available for a relationship. Women would appreciate it so much more if men could be genuine with themselves and their partners about exactly what they want. ((We don’t want to get invested in you if you aren’t worth the time.))

Momma's Boy

We are happy that you have a great relationship with your mother, but we don’t want to date your mother! Meddling mama’s can be a huge problem in a relationship, and even a deal breaker for many. Guys, it is important to set boundaries with your family and don’t let mom interfere in your life. It’s also important that you strive for balance in your romantic relationships, because women, as a rule, don’t want to play mama. Childish does not equal attractive.