No sense at all!

June 26th or give or take a day..

So you ever have someone drop off the planet of the earth just stop communicating with you.. probably not.. well I would say here I was spending a lot of time with someone things were great.. great times fun times... all of a sudden out of nowhere the person just stopped talking to me.. never a reason or anything.. the entire time I wondered what in the world I could have done wrong.

I actually stopped going to certain events so I wouldn't run into this person.. I was truly hurt over the entire situation.. I cared so much but after being alone for a long time and finally getting to a situation that I could be around the person I decided not to miss anymore events they may be at..
Well we ran into each other at a pool party.. and about 3 weeks later this last week.. this person decides it's a great time to be like.. oh by the way ... I love you..

I LOVE YOU.. are you serious??????
Do you know what love is???

Do you know what this person did.. where they disappeared to? They dated someone else for 10 months.. lived together... so you LOVE ME but you MOVED IN with SOMEONE ELSE...

more on this later....

The Dirty

Is on Dr. Phil right now. Crazy since this website is crazy!

Sissy...

What do you see here??

A Big Sister and her younger Brother in a life with the wind and world blowing all around them and this one tree shooting beautiful cotton blossoms around.. that is the beauty the ones that have actually bloomed. 

I love you Brother ... always your big sissy

Nephew & me =) June 3rd 2011

Someday I will want to look back and remember these days..

If only I did this before you left us....

I think I found the perfect Tattoo to get in remembrance of my Grandpa Tony!! He was always so proud of being a Marine & I'm so thankful he had a hand in raising me! I believe the respect I have for myself comes mostly from him. He is the reason I know Good Men do exist in this world.

If it wasn't for my Grandpa I wouldn't be able to love the way I do... if it wasn't for Grandpa my son wouldn't have been taught some really important things in this world.. important things only a man can teach you.. only a Grandpa can teach you.

I tell you sometimes... I can still hear your voice.. oh yes I can =)

Love you Grandpa!

I can promise you....

I can promise you

I would never say goodbye,

I want you to give me the chance

to make your feelings and heart fly

I never deny that I need you

because you are the cure against

my fear and my pain,

Nothing comes to my mind

when I’m thinking of you

and when I’m thinking of you

Nothing else matters,

As long as we are together

the fire in my heart

will never fade,

because the feelings that

I have for you are like nothing

I ever felt before in my life.

I was just thinking...

One thing I love is when a person looks at you and they see something different than what others see-They see the real you. They accept you & make you happy.<3

R. Kelly - Radio Message

THE JAM right here!!!

Ralfi Pagan-To Say I Love You

Woke up to this song on my text messages... oh I am a sucker for some good music and sweetness

Vietmenese Food so good!!!

This was so good and I'm happy I trusted him ordering for me because oh it was delicious!

ARE YOU STRONG?!

It's so curious:  one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief.  But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, or a letter slips from a drawer... and everything collapses. 


Kinda reminds me of walking in through the garage and then going over and seeing the Kitchen table all set up and thinking about Grandpa. 


I'm almost willing to bet God didn't intend for us to not fall apart all the time. Is it human to be so strong or so called STRONG?! 


I looked up the word strong as I was studying tonight I was very curious as to what that word meant inside of the dictionary. This is what I came across.


strong  (strông)

adj. strong·er, strong·est

1.

a. Physically powerful; capable of exerting great physical force.

b. Marked by great physical power: a strong blow to the head.

2. In good or sound health; robust: a strong constitution; a strong heart.

3. Economically or financially sound or thriving: a strong economy.

4. Having force of character, will, morality, or intelligence: a strong personality.

5. Having or showing ability or achievement in a specified field: students who are strong in chemistry.

6. Capable of the effective exercise of authority: a strong leader.

7.

a. Capable of withstanding force or wear; solid, tough, or firm: a strong building; a strong fabric.

b. Having great binding strength: a strong adhesive.

8. Not easily captured or defeated: a strong flank; a strong defense.

9. Not easily upset; resistant to harmful or unpleasant influences: strong nerves; a strong stomach.

10. Having force or rapidity of motion: a strong current.

11.

a. Persuasive, effective, and cogent: a strong argument.

b. Forceful and pointed; emphatic: a strong statement.

c. Forthright and explicit, often offensively so: strong language.

12. Extreme; drastic: had to resort to strong measures.

13. Having force of conviction or feeling; uncompromising: strong faith; a strong supporter.

14. Intense in degree or quality: a strong emotion; strong motivation.

15.

a. Having an intense or offensive effect on the senses: strong light; strong vinegar; strong cologne.

b. Clear and loud: a strong voice.

c. Readily noticeable; remarkable: a strong resemblance; a strong contrast.

d. Readily detected or received: a strong radio signal.

16.

a. Having a high concentration of an essential or active ingredient: mixed a strong solution of bleach and water.

b. Containing a considerable percentage of alcohol: strong punch.

c. Powerfully effective: a strong painkiller.

17. Characterized by a high degree of saturation.

18. Having a specified number of units or members: a military force 100,000 strong.

19. Marked by steady or rising prices: a strong market.

20. Linguistics

a. Of or relating to those verbs in Germanic languages that form their past tense by a change in stem vowel, and their past participles by a change in stem vowel and sometimes by adding the suffix -(e)n, as sing, sang, sung or tear, tore, torn.

b. Of or relating to the inflection of nouns or adjectives in Germanic languages with endings that historically did not contain a suffix with an n.

21. Stressed or accented in pronunciation or poetic meter. Used of a word or syllable.

 

Pretty scary how the world makes people feel that the only one way to be is STRONG. I think we all need to have that moment and feel safe that it's okay to not always be strong.

June 3rd-June 4th

The words were exchanged the feelings remain....

I was curious just a bit if it had to do with my tears that you exchanged the same words back but I have a feeling that my cousin was right and you've felt this way for sometime and just didn't know it...